I wasn't meant to be a desk monkey, I wasn't meant to be a desk monkey.....

... I keep telling myself that.

The company I used to work for just went public. It debuted this morning on NASDAQ at $9/share. It should get up to the $20 range soon. I gave up my stock options when I left. I can't help feeling sick to my stomach when I think about that money I could have had. I could provide for a family, have a nest egg, maybe even pay off my student loans.

But that's the devil talking again.

I gave it up for a dream, for love. Not romantic love, but love of life. I can't think of a better reason to give up thousands of dollars. And hopefully I can keep that in mind when the devil says I'll be poor forever. Poor and happy is okay with me.